Lovely
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Last published Sun, May 19, 2019
Thought I found a way.
Trying to escape my fears.
But you never go away.
All the thoughts are the same.
Die.
So I guess I gotta stay now.
There's no way out.
There's no on here to help me.
I hope some day I'll make it out of here.
I need somebody with me.
Even if it takes all night or a hundred years.
Please come save me before it's too late.
Need a place to hide, but I can't find one near.
I can't hide away from them.
It's impossible.
Don't bother trying.
Wanna feel alive.
But I can't feel alive.
I feel dead.
Outside I can fight my fear.
I really can't fight my fears.
I'm weak.
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***WARNING***
This story has mentions of self harm. I don't mean to offend anyone. It just that this story is based on Mental Health. I may also contain strong violence and a lot of blood mentions as well.
This story is made because I want people to understand about Mental Health. Some people use Mental Health issues as excuses and I think that it is wrong. Mental Health is a serious thing and people need to understand that.
Don't say that I didn't warn you.
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Started: May 19, 2019
Finished:???
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