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Apparemment j'écris bien mais je n'exploite pas assez mon talent alors je laisse mes texte dans lesquels j'essaie d'extériorisé des maux que j'ai du mal à exprimer et sur lequel j'essaie de mettre des mots. comme le titre l'indique ce sont pleins de notes que j'ai eu soit écrit sur mon tel soit sur papier en vrac' mais pour lesquels je ne me suis jamais attardé sur la forme et le style d'écriture alors ils est possibme qu'un texte soit ecrit en double car j'ai mal organisé mon dossier ou encore que des mots se répète souvent car parfois je récupére un idée que je reformule ou quoi, enfin bon,ce sont des pensées comme des réflexions personnelle cela dit je pense que l'on peut tous s'y reconnaître, pour tout avis venez en pv ou sur insta (@okakokalo.mp3 ou @jordan.sabata). 
bonne lecture si t'aime pas tant pis.All Rights Reserved

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