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Where The Light Doesn't Reach

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Reads 181,528
Votes 6,885
Parts 28
Time 6h 18m

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Carter's drowning and his parents only make it worse. 
They call him a disappointment, neglecting him and ignoring his cries for help, all while unaware of the dark secret he's kept for a very long time-

 A secret he doesn't want anyone to figure out.

But there's a man named Gray who seems to appear out of nowhere, and he chose Carter as his new best friend. 

With his persistence and their growing friendship, it's only a matter of time before Carter's secret is exposed. 

What would happen then?



- Cover by @Rosin_Reads - 

Content warnings: 
S/A, neglect, suicidal thoughts, loss/grief, self-harm, homophobia, slurs, physical violence, physical abuse, mental abuse, mental illness, recoveryAll Rights Reserved

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