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Where The Light Doesn't Reach

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Reads 178,558
Votes 6,805
Parts 27
Time 6h 8m

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Carter can't stand it when anyone touches him.
As depression eats away at him, his parents only seem to make things worse. They call him a disappointment, neglecting him and ignoring his cries for help, all while unaware of the dark secret he's kept for a very long time-

 A secret he doesn't want anyone to figure out.

But there's a man named Gray who seems to appear out of nowhere, and he chose Carter as his new best friend. With his persistence and their growing friendship, it's only a matter of time before Carter's secret is exposed. 

What would happen then?



- Cover by @Rosin_Reads - 

(If you see any mentions of HP or The Witcher, then remove the story from your library and re-add it, since that's the unedited version)

Trigger warnings: rape, depression, neglect, suicidal thoughts, past self-harm, and slight homophobia.All Rights Reserved

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