The love I Don't have .
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Ongoing, First published May 26, 2019
Mature
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Emmaline, a young Black-British woman, decides to move to New York to start a new life. She meets Aubin, a self-contained man who resists all her principles and challenges all her inclinations. 
Somehow... something raw blossoms, despite the reluctance from both Emmaline and Aubin. 

But then there was the problem of Aubin's past - coming back to haunt them both. 


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A romantic - thriller that tests the perceptions of love and romance - all against the backdrop of New York City. 

Inter-racial romance.
For mature readers.
All Rights Reserved
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