My Suicide Letter.
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Last published Mon, Aug 11, 2014
My name is Alana, Alana Marie Thompson.
You can call me Allie or EC.
I am 16 years old.
I am known as the outcast.
I am also known as the attention seeker.
People often ask me "Why do you want to die so badly?"
Well you know, here it is.
All I ever wanted was somebody to hear me, but nobody would listen. Maybe you can hear me, out there, whoever you are, reading this.. Well, here it is. Sit back, and read.. but be aware this is reality.
//Hello, I'm Cara, and I just hope you enjoy this, I'm trying to make it to where people open their eyes. To see the real world because everybody is so hidden in the dark. This could be triggering to some, so be aware.//
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