The Fault in Our Stars: Augustus' Return

I do, Augustus.
I do.

It has been a couple of months now, since Gus' death. I've been coping... Not very well, but it was inevitable that it was going to happen.
The past few days have been rough, but I feel like Gus is here with me... Somehow.
Every so often I find a cigarette on the floor, or on my bed. I generally just move them, thinking my mother has put it there to help me to not forget about him. However today, mom and dad were out at the psychiatrists office trying to get me some more anti-depressants. I'm depressed. But depression is just a side affect to dying. Dying is a side affect to life, Gus was always going to die. I just didn't perceive it would be so soon.