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Why Can't I just be Happy?

HeartlessAziahr

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HeartlessAziahr

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"Sana namatay ka na lang"-galit na galit na sabi sakin ni mama habang dinuduro duro ako


"Dahil sayo nag aaway kami ng papa mo"-dagdag niya


pinapakinggan at sinasalo ko lang lahat ng nga masasakit na salitang binitawan ni mama.........


"Alam mo wala kang kamukha sa mga magulang mo ang tatlo mong kapatid kamukha nila alam mo ba bakit wala kang kamukha sa kanila?dahil ampon ka naiintindihan mo ba ako A-M-P-O-N ka"-sabi sakin ni mommy ang mother ng father ko


tiniis ko lahat ng sakit na dulot nila hanggang sa di ko na kayanin at nagpasya akong gagawin ko lahat para makalayas sa empyernong buhay nato


ako si Keisha Shantel Evans Im now 15 years old and this is my story..........All Rights Reserved

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Luminaria

Morinathia Rosales lived for the thrill of luxury - designer labels, champagne toasts, and flawless skin. To her, happiness always came with a price... until the price turned out to be her life. Waking up in a world unknown, she finds herself in the body of a royal - not on a throne, but in chains. From glam to dungeon, from clinking champagne glasses to the screech of iron rails that caged her in. Her second life doesn't crown her a queen... it chains her as a prisoner.