Disorderly Intentions
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Last published Fri, Aug 17, 2012
THINGS TO REMEMBER:
1) Bones are clean and pure. Fat is dirty and tainted.
2)Starving shows will power. You are stronger than everyone else.
3)You will be fat if you eat today.
Vanessa knows her body and her disorder like the back of her hand. She knows exactly how many miles she needs to run if she wants to run off the sleeve of saltines she accidentally binged on earlier.
Amelia is new to the eating disorder scene, but little does she realize, when it comes to bulimia, she's pretty hardcore. Vomiting a minimum of five times a day? Yeah, the girl's got some dedication. When her sudden weight loss catches the eye of Vanessa, the girls are in for one incredibly messed up friendship- if you can call it that.
Throw the easily impressionable Meghan into the equation and you've got a recipe for disaster. It'll take some extreme measures before anyone in this disorderly crew wakes up and realizes that beauty can't be measured in calories and protruding bones- that is, if they ever realize it.
**WARNING: THIS STORY MAY BE TRIGGERING FOR SOME WITH EATING DISORDERS. PROCEED WITH CAUTION*
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