Bisexuality: The Discovery Of Me
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Ongoing18m
Last published Sat, Nov 9, 2019
All chapters are real recounts of my days and the thoughts that occur throughout them. This is my struggle with discovering myself and coming to terms with the person I was, and the person I am becoming. I hope that one day I will be able to finish this book with a chapter that says "and now, I end this book because I finally know who I am. I know my purpose and my sexuality and I am okay with it."
But until then, enjoy the shenanigans of my unstable mind.
This book is more or less for myself rather than any readers that may come across it, purely because I think someone out there may need a person like this in their lives. Real recounts of real events and discouragements of someone discovering their sexuality so that they know it isn't all smooth sailing. It never is.
I didn't know what this was supposed to feel like, or if I was just supposed to know and be done with it. As a matter of fact I am still learning that not everything comes easy.
So to the person out there who stumbled across this and thought, 'hey, I might give this a read because it sounds like what I'm going through' this is it. This is what it is like for me, and what it may be like for you. I hope you find who you are and that the people around you accept you for it.
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