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Chasing Nirvana

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There are summers...and then there are summers. 

Nathaniel has been friendzoned by Jimmy Jacobs FOREVER. Jimmy, beautiful, reckless and more than insane, has never given him a second thought. Still, he was sure that given enough time, things would change between the two of them. And one particular summer, they did. 

Set against a hot summer full of roadtrips and teenage madness, Chasing Nirvana is a coming-of-age story that attempts to get answers to a burning question: How do we find something worth living for?All Rights Reserved

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After The Party (A Kurt Cobain fanfic) by frusciantefiction

A story of two people living a lifestyle where it can sometimes seem like the party never stops. Kurt and Lily are trying to figure out how to keep their passionate relationship alive when everything from fame to drugs is tearing it apart. From the start of the story in the spring of 1990, to the height of Nirvana's fame, Lily and Kurt navigate the trials of young love in entirely uncharted territory... Much of the inspiration for this storyline came from The Menzinger's song and music video for After The Party (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghTYSXQnqbg) as well as the album itself so I'd highly recommend watching and listening in order to understand the full picture. Thanks so much and I hope you enjoy :)

The Outcast by GisellePappagallo

"You know Ana, life is like a camera. You have to focus on what's important, capture the good times, develop from the negatives, and if things dont work out, simply take another shot" advised River in his deep and comforting velvet voice. And for the first time since the incident, a surge of bravery engulfed me as I entered through the gates with new found confidence. Time to face the monster that had made my life a living hell. Life, for 17 year old Nirvana Evans, is anything but easy. Being labeled as the germ freak in school is not fun and if it hadn't been for her best friend Will, she probably would have never endured it. But having only one year left makes Nirvana realize that she doesn't simply want to survive anymore, she wants to stand out. So what happens when she attends the annual senior bonfire party and the events of the night lead to a chain of consequences that could change her life for good. This is a story about love, loss, friendship, learning to accept who you are and a crazy love triangle with some unexpected surprises along the way. So strap in and hold on tight because Nirvanas life is anything but a smooth ride.

Broken Soul (A Kurt Cobain Fanfic) by g0thchick00

What if Kurt didn't marry Courtney Love? What if he truly loved a girl that moved his home town in 1982? What would happen with Frances Bean Cobain with her parents never being married? What if Courtney overdosed in 1993 after losing custody? Fanfic of Kurt Cobain Contains smut, drug use, and self harm. (*) means that the chapter has sexual content Some events that happened in reality won't happen in this book especially someone's death Enjoy Cobain lovers 😘

Devil's Entourage [The Devil's Series #1] by ZeenaBecks

** SAMPLE ** She is like July, she is the heat of the summer, the scent of the most beautiful flower, the taste of the sweetest fruit, refreshing like a bath in the ocean, full of life and happiness. She is my sun. That's what I thought about when I told the tattoo artist to write these words on my heart. For everyone else, these are just some cryptic words they don't understand. To me, they mean only one thing. 'The truly beautiful part of life starts with July.' With Jay. It was my first tattoo, but I guess it's true what people always say, tattoos are addictive! I may not have gotten more than this one yet, but there is no doubt others will follow in the future. A future I only hope I won't have to spend alone. But Jay was at our concert tonight. She is alive and she's still here, in Manchester, in the same city I am currently in. And will be for another fifteen hours before the plane takes me back to London. That means I have fifteen hours to find her. Nate Fox is the face of the British rock band Devil's Entourage. Writing one heart-melting hit after the other, he could have every girl he wants. But his heart only belongs to her. Jay. His best friend, the girl he couldn't help falling in love with. The girl who disappeared without a word of goodbye... What happens when they meet again after two years of silence? When Nate has to realise that she had to go through times harder than he could have ever suspected. Times that left the girl once known as the Devil's Daughter nothing but a shadow of herself.

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She saved him{COMPLETED} by SincerelyNirvana

The year is 2018,Aimee Eli is a 18 year old Nirvana fan struggling with her depression.she cries every night,the only thing that can comfort her is Kurt Cobain's voice.one night,she makes a wish upon a star. "I wish...I wish someone could've saved Kurt Cobain...maybe he'd still be alive right now." When she goes to bed that night her whole life changes,when she wakes up it's 1991!she's in her room,but it's different now.certain posters are still up but certain technology is either gone or has been replaced with old 90's technology,Aimee is initially scared and confused.but when she discovers what year it is she realizes something:she has been given a chance to change the past.will she be able to save Kurt Cobain?or will she see what really happened to him?

Bayside by abik3726

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1999 by smwpovs

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A Year Around the Sun by sabbbycat

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My first gay Kurt Cobain book series! -------------------------------------------------------- Book 1:Kurt Cobain slowly befriends Michael Oliver,a worker at the local record shop.he mainly only goes there to see Michael,and the more he goes there the more they become friends.when Frances Bean Cobain is born,Kurt is in need of a nanny.so,he decides to hire Michael since he's the only one he trusts.Michael has a secret,it's the same secret Kurt has:he loves him.he's scared to tell him,mainly because Kurt's with Courtney.will Michael be able to tell Kurt how he feels about him?or,will it be too late? -------------------------------------------------------------- Book 2: Kurt Cobain and Michael Oliver are in love,no one knows except for Michael's friend Hallie.Kurt and Michael want to be together,but Courtney is in their way.it's up to Michael and Hallie to know what to do about the whole situation,one thing is for sure:Courtney was an issue.will Kurt and Michael be together?will Courtney ruin everything?will Nirvana disband?or will it be too late for Kurt Donald Cobain? ------------------------------------------------------------- Book 3:In the third and final book of this series,Michael and Kurt are living happily in their new home.they decided it would be more convenient to live near Krist and Shelli,who are planning on having children.Dave's getting married to his girlfriend Jennifer,but he has some doubts.Pat Smear joins the band,and Nirvana goes on one final tour.but will everyone get their happily ever after?

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