Pumpkins and memories

He came to her out of imagination. Someone she easily hated. A boy with no direction, a past he clung too and confusion that swam behind his eyes..He came to her as chaos. A friend from years ago someone she knew In the back of her mind someone she admired from a distance but not someone she would ever forget.

"I spent many days wishing I never meet you, maybe if I had kept pretending I hated you life would have been different. Maybe if you never existed and I spent my days hoping I never see you again, that one day I wouldn't see you anymore and I could move on. I could finally be free. That day wouldn't come, I wouldn't let it because I spent every day wanting to see you and every day taking what few minutes I could to see you And those moments made me who I am. Each moment was purpose to me. It was life, and I can forever say I'm not letting go even if you are just a memory. I want to remember each second, every breath."