In My Darkest Hours
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Pain. Everywhere I go it follows. Sorrow. Every life I try to live, it is there. Useless. No matter what I do I hurt the people I love. Life, Death. Traitor, Friend. Monster, Murderer. Angel, Demon. Savoir, Destroyer. Love, Hatred. These are the words that play through my mind, making sentences, forming bridges, creating webs that will ensnare me if I don't keep going. If I don't keep moving on. If I keep living. But... It is easier said then done. And then... I saw your faces on the TV and... everything changed. You gave me hope. You took away all my pain and heartache and scared it away. You were the light in my darkness. And you did the impossible, you chased away these words and made me want to live again.
After the events at the lodge Aph is... broken. She just sits on the couch staring blankly at the TV for hours at a time not all there. No one can get her to talk or come out of her shell until one day. One day some news footage from several years prior came on. She woke up.
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