This or That?

“Our kiss was the best five seconds of my summer.”

“This is the last message Meredith Foster. Go! You can do it!” I told myself. I am sitting on the floor, resting my back on my closet door, wearing again the shirt he gave me. I still can’t believe I’m doing this. Deleting all his messages and throwing away all the things that remind me of him.

“We were so happy together, why did it have to end?

You are my one true love, how could you do this to me?

If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

What about our friends? I hope they will not have to choose sides.

Am I the only one to blame?”

All these questions run into my head, but then, I started picturing his beautiful face again. The way he smiles at me. The way he laughs at my clumsiness. The way he stares at me thinking I never noticed, but the truth is I always melt inside whenever he looks at me that way.

Then I realized, I’m crying again.