"Phil, I have people living inside my head."
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This story involves a trauma-based disorder called "Dissociative Identity Disorder" D.I.D for short. I am NOT an expert and don't know all the details on DID. I have been learning and studying it for two years now, as of right now. 2019.
I think there's not many stories or movies out there with an accurate representation of this disorder, so I want to make one. That's at least 75% more accurate than those Hollywood movies with multiple "personalities."
A few more things:
1.) why is this story a fanfic? Why Dan and Phil?
I came up with a story like this a while ago but never found a plot and I wasn't as nearly as educated as I am now. In ways, I feel like it's inappropriate to make this a fanfic but it's not meant to harm anyone. So if you have this disorder and/or have trauma, this story may not be for you, as I mention different types of trauma and in specifics.
It's easier for me to write a story about existing people, I don't know why. Dan and Phil just happened to be the most fitting characters, I guess.
2.) I'm in no way trying to romanticize or glorify this trauma-based disorder, I am, however, trying to shed some light on it with whatever I can. This disorder is not a vicious or delightful case, it was just one of the many ways the brain protects itself from past or occurring trauma.
3.) I hope that no one is triggered while reading this, so here are the trigger warnings:
different types of abuse, (domestic, child abuse, sexual, etc.) mentions of suicide attempts, anxiety, depression, lots and lots of dissociation and derealization.
With that said, I hope this story is interesting enough and safe for you to read.
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24.10.17
Hello Reader! this is my book. As you can see it is currently discontinued and I've officially decided to no longer carry it on. I have many reasons for this but the biggest one is that I've grown out of my d&p phase (I still love and support them both) and mostly cringe whenever I get reminded of this book. My grammar and punctuation was awful and I have now entered the part of my life when I'm being swallowed alive by school work. I am keeping this book up however for two reasons:
1. I'm attached to wattpad. Although I never use my account and high key wanna delete it, I've had a lot of fun and sad memories on this website and this book was a big part of that.
2. This somehow has 150k reads and 3k votes.
By the way, thank you all for the reads and votes! I'm so grateful to see my younger selfs work paid off! I don't read lots of your comments (although sometimes the positive ones make me grin, thank you all for your kindness btw c:) because I'm well aware of my many errors and I get utterly embarrassed at others having to correct my old mistakes aha. This is getting very long. Bye to all of you and thank you for all the support and love I've had over the course of the making of this book. I love you all.
\\ smuts \\ angst \\ fluff \\ no requests please \\
Discontinued and unedited.