"Phil, I have people living inside my head."
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This story involves a trauma-based disorder called "Dissociative Identity Disorder" D.I.D for short. I am NOT an expert and don't know all the details on DID. I have been learning and studying it for two years now, as of right now. 2019.
I think there's not many stories or movies out there with an accurate representation of this disorder, so I want to make one. That's at least 75% more accurate than those Hollywood movies with multiple "personalities."
A few more things:
1.) why is this story a fanfic? Why Dan and Phil?
I came up with a story like this a while ago but never found a plot and I wasn't as nearly as educated as I am now. In ways, I feel like it's inappropriate to make this a fanfic but it's not meant to harm anyone. So if you have this disorder and/or have trauma, this story may not be for you, as I mention different types of trauma and in specifics.
It's easier for me to write a story about existing people, I don't know why. Dan and Phil just happened to be the most fitting characters, I guess.
2.) I'm in no way trying to romanticize or glorify this trauma-based disorder, I am, however, trying to shed some light on it with whatever I can. This disorder is not a vicious or delightful case, it was just one of the many ways the brain protects itself from past or occurring trauma.
3.) I hope that no one is triggered while reading this, so here are the trigger warnings:
different types of abuse, (domestic, child abuse, sexual, etc.) mentions of suicide attempts, anxiety, depression, lots and lots of dissociation and derealization.
With that said, I hope this story is interesting enough and safe for you to read.
*WARNING* There are some triggers in this story, if you are emotional and cry easily, I do NOT recommend reading this! There is rape on one character, and some fighting. Please don't read this if you're really fragile....or nine. Yeah. But eventually there will be fluff so it's not ALL bad. I thought this seemed like a topic that many people have not thought about happening with Dan and Phil (btw they do NOT get raped or are the rapists) so I wanted to try and capture their thought in reality! In no way is this realistic (I'm just trying to get the personalities right) and I hope you enjoy!