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I breath
I stand here
I talk
I write
but yet I feel num
like I am not here
so am I really living?
or is it just a dream
just a nightmare I can't wake up from.

I don't really know
I cut trying to feel wat its like to be alive.


I tell my self Im alive n this is no dream 
this is no nightmare.


but am I alive?
am I really living?


I don't really know anymoreAll Rights Reserved

emo emoteen help helpme misfit scared suicide thoughts wonder

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