living?

I breath
I stand here
I talk
I write
but yet I feel num
like I am not here
so am I really living?
or is it just a dream
just a nightmare I can't wake up from.

I don't really know
I cut trying to feel wat its like to be alive.

I tell my self Im alive n this is no dream
this is no nightmare.

but am I alive?
am I really living?

I don't really know anymore