living?
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Last published Wed, Jul 9, 2014
I breath
I stand here
I talk
I write
but yet I feel num
like I am not here
so am I really living?
or is it just a dream
just a nightmare I can't wake up from.
I don't really know
I cut trying to feel wat its like to be alive.
I tell my self Im alive n this is no dream
this is no nightmare.
but am I alive?
am I really living?
I don't really know anymore
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