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Absolute Control

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Reads 357
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Parts 25
Time 2h 46m

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There he is, a godly man stands in front of me. My heart is beating so fast that it feels like it will explode out of my chest. I have never felt like this before, I don't want this. It's a bad thing that I'm starting to feel, I'm becoming vulnerable. No, I have to suppress my feelings. I don't want to be hurt again, and what if father finds out? I'll become a dead meat if he does, I don't want more cuts and bruises. There's so much my weak little body won't be able to take another. This has to stop, it is a sin! Do not think about it, I need to be strong. I have been through things like this, I can suppress my feelings. I have absolute control or, so I thought...All Rights Reserved

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Irreconcilable by Dreaming-Mirk

If only you knew, honestly if only I knew where I would be at this time last year I would call you insane. It feels like not to long ago I was your regular Christian. The school, the church, the "perfect" life? It was all's lie. I was the skinny boy who was bullied at school and at home. That is till I met him. He changed my life. He saved my life. And I couldn't be more thankful. Stick with it for a few chapters I promise it gets better haha BxB !!!! ‼️ Mentions: Abuse Alcohol substances Rape Religion IF ANY OF THESE TRIGGER YOU PLEASE DO NOT READ AND IF YOU ARE EXPERIENCING ANY OF THESE PLEASE REACH OUT TO ME OR OTHERS!!!!! ily be safe and look out for your mental health!💝

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐆𝐇𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐘𝐎𝐔 by Raven_2805

"will you be there, even if the world was falling apart.....will you be there?" i asked. All i wanted was to feel okay, to finally be able to be free and not feel as if life held me by the throat. "yes i will." he answered "i will be there." he repeated, as if he tried to convince himslef rather then me. "i promise." he said. what a lie..... where were you then? where were you when i was on my knees screaming in agony waiting for someone to strip the pain from my aching heart. "i promise." you said. what a lie.... ~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~•~ 𝚃𝙷𝙸𝚂 𝙸𝚂 𝙰 𝚂𝙷𝙾𝚁𝚃 𝚂𝚃𝙾𝚁𝚈!!!! ⚠︎𝑺𝒖𝒄𝒊𝒅𝒍𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒔 ⚠︎𝑺𝒖𝒄𝒊𝒅𝒆 ⚠︎𝑩𝑶𝒀x𝐵𝑂𝑌 ⚠︎𝑯𝒂𝒓𝒔𝒉 𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒖𝒂𝒈𝒆 (𝖢𝖮𝖬𝖯𝖫𝖤𝖳𝖤𝖣)

I've Never Stopped Loving Chris Mallon by Unveiled_1

You spoke with your fists more than you spoke with your words the hate poured out of you and onto me for all the things that weren't my fault You've beaten the fight out of me taught me not to run and tell a lesson made in blood turned me into your slave You showed me kindness in rare moments you didn't make my life hell a manipulation or a nicer side to you I could never tell You fed me breadcrumbs made me treasure them like gold until I worshipped the ground you walked on and looked at you like one might look at God You upped and left never said a goodbye it hurt more than the most painful fist and the cruelest lie You became a ghost haunted me for a decade showed up in memories and dreams and one summer night in real life All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, without the written permission of the author.

Bloom in the wake of Ruin ⚣ ✔️ by AngryPeopleUnited

"Excuse me, sir. I think you may have dropped these?" It was the voice I noticed first. Smooth, a little amused, and low enough to draw me out of myself. Then I saw him. Dirty blonde hair that looked like waves crashing down the sides of his face, and freckles like splattered paint across his fair skin. A silver hoop in his nose, another in his brow, both catching the light. And those eyes... electric blue, staring into my green ones with intensity. - After a heartbreaking loss, Killian has spent two years shielding himself from love, or any human contact really-convinced that no one could ever replace the person he lost. Finn, on the other hand, is caught in the throes of a toxic relationship, knowing he's not getting what he deserves but is too scared to walk away. When their paths cross, the spark is undeniable, but both are hesitant, scared of getting too close. Killian fears the pain of loving and losing again, while Finn's relationship has made him lose hope all together-almost. Will they let their pasts define them, or can they find the courage to bloom together in the wake of their ruins?

My BF(F) by find_your_love

Pak! My hand stings at the affect of the slap making me feel how real this is. My brother was blasting the music too loudly in the house. I guess he didn't hear it. And I guess he wouldn't care even if he did. But I felt it resonate in my room. I stare at his face. I don't know what other people would react like when your best friend kisses you out of the blue. But mine was that and the slap was instinctive. I see his expression which showed that he was expecting this from me. He was half apologetic is what I felt. He looks up at me holding his cheek which I just slapped and I thought he was handsome at that moment, out of the 15 years we've known each other. Weird but I couldn't help it. I gulp and he takes a step forward and I move back as a reflex. I don't know if it was a right decision when I came out to him and now I can't go back anyway. But will I regret it, is the question. He keeps advancing as I move back until my back hits the wall. He looks at me dead in the eyes. Aravind comes out to his best friend from childhood, Devanand, only to suddenly find out that Devanand was also confused about his feelings. Read it to find out if they will find a middle ground and the clarity they want. Disclaimer from Aravind : Do not let your best friend flirt with you ! It is not good for your heart !

THE JOCK JUST WANTS THE NERD [2] by THEVINCENTNOAH

(finished) Part 2: Don't you hate it when you thought you were done with your conflicting feelings, suddenly you have them coming back to you when you least expect it?, when you develop feelings for someone you think you have no chances with, when people think that those feelings aren't accepted by society, when you can't get your crush to notice you, then you feel like the world just crumbles around you when things just don't work out the way how you wanted it to be? I... I like him... But there's just so much shit going on that I don't know if I can bring myself to be with him... ...So I'm writing down all of this in my journal to pour all my thoughts out... Because I just need to express these feelings out somehow... -Jackson #2 - closeted #76 - homo

Warmth of Colliding Souls( BL, On-Going) by brewdwie

A BL LOVE STORY! (MascXMasc) Love, the best feeling you could ever feel for someone. A feeling you would treasure the most. Give your efforts and time for that person. Meeting someone who will made you feel special and loved, every bit of it, was the best feeling-truly. But, colliding to someone you'll never thought to meet, fell inlove and found his warmth felt like home. The unexpected, never planned. The Warmth of Colliding Souls. 11-01-24

THE BAD GIRL'S BOY by halymahxoxo

Promiscuity is addictive. It's so safe. You are not at risk of getting hurt, physically maybe , But emotionally ? No And the emotional pain is by far the worst. I know this because I've experienced both. Physical pain, from my alcoholic father, sexual abuse from his friends. It hurt, it really did. I have scars to show. But let me tell you, the worst type of hurt is the emotional pain. That pain you get when after years of building a wall around yourself, you FINALLY let someone in. You let that one special person in. You bring down your walls. You give your heart. You let him hold your heart in his palms even though you know the risks. You have so many dreams and fantasies about being with this person forever. And he leads you on. It feels good But then he turns around and crushes your heart. He squeezes the life out of it and you feel pain that you never thought was humanly possible. You feel so much pain you can't breathe. And then , you become cold. You stop feeling. You have no heart anymore. You become heartless, promiscuous, bad, really bad. Yes , that happened to me. Ben did that to me. It hurt. It hurt too much. But now I'm safe . Because I'm the bad girl. The one who doesn't have a heart left to be broken.

$Once in a Lifetime {BxB English} by Iris_Hayley$

They say you only fall in love once. For Ody and Mano, that once changed everything. In a world where love isn't always safe, and pain comes hand-in-hand with desire, two straight boys find each other in the middle of grief, trauma, and secrets that refuse to stay buried. Mano doesn't do vulnerability. Aggressive, tattooed, cold, and impossible to like, he plays the villain on purpose, because being hated is safer than being seen... and losing someone again would ruin him. Ody can't help but care. Bright, extroverted, charming and painfully sincere, he's the kind of boy who notices when you're hurting... even when you pretend you're not. He remembers your birthday, offers you the last slice, and apologizes even when it's not his fault. When their lives collide, nothing about them makes sense, except the way they keep gravitating toward each other. Sparks fly, but so do secrets, buried trauma, and a love neither of them is ready for. One of them hides behind silence. The other hides behind smiles. Together, they're wildfire. But not all fires survive the storm. The forbidden love between a broken boy and a lost one - a bond that refuses to break, even as the world tries to tear them apart. 🖤New chapter every Friday🖤 ! Warning : contains mature content and very dark themes including bullying, violence, strong language, explicit sexual scenes. Intended for readers 18 years and older. #3 gaylove / 66,1k. stories #2 wattpride / 18,9k. stories #9 lgbt / 17,4k. stories #9 lgbtlove / 17,1k. stories

Loud Silence (BoyxBoy) by Wth_is_happeningg

Miles is nervous and quiet. He graduated early to escape the bullying and chaos of high school, but adulthood hasn't offered the escape he had hoped for. Isolated and adrift, he struggles with panic attacks, loneliness, and memories that refuse to stay buried. His world shifts when he meets Atticus. Confident, kind, and impossible to ignore. Miles quickly begins to crave the connection he never thought he deserved. As their relationship deepens, so does Miles's hope that maybe someone could love him enough to help him heal, but the past has a way of catching up. Because love, as beautiful as it is, doesn't always drown out the noise, and silence can be louder than anyone realizes. Set against a backdrop of late-night parties, quiet heartbreaks, and moments of painful honesty, Loud Silence is a slow-burning, coming-of-age story about identity, survival, and the terrifying hope of letting someone in. This is the first long-form story I've ever written. I would love feedback as long as it's respectful. This story has been swirling around my head for years, and I'm excited to finally fight against my own anxiety and put it out into the world. ⚠️ Trigger & Content Warning ⚠️ Loud Silence contains boy x boy romance and deals with heavy mental health themes, including depression, anxiety, self-harm, suicidal thoughts, abuse (emotional, physical, and sexual), sexual identity struggles, and death. I do everything I can to portray these themes honestly and respectfully. Reader discretion is strongly advised. Best rankings: #1 in mental health #6 in gay #12 in gaylovers #17 in boyxboyromance #30 in gaypride #26 in anxietyattacks #76 in homosexual

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Irreconcilable

If only you knew, honestly if only I knew where I would be at this time last year I would call you insane. It feels like not to long ago I was your regular Christian. The school, the church, the "perfect" life? It was all's lie. I was the skinny boy who was bullied at school and at home. That is till I met him. He changed my life. He saved my life. And I couldn't be more thankful. Stick with it for a few chapters I promise it gets better haha BxB !!!! ‼️ Mentions: Abuse Alcohol substances Rape Religion IF ANY OF THESE TRIGGER YOU PLEASE DO NOT READ AND IF YOU ARE EXPERIENCING ANY OF THESE PLEASE REACH OUT TO ME OR OTHERS!!!!! ily be safe and look out for your mental health!💝