Wanting Nothing More Than To Feel Something
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Last published Sun, Jun 23, 2019
"Would you rather feel nothing or something? I want both. But you never really get what you want, right?"
Being a superhero may seem cool, but no one looks beyond the fancy looking costume and superpowers, at least they choose not to.
At some point you have to figure out what you want and who you really are. But it's hard to do it when you can't face your true self.
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Being Spiderman has taken it's toll on Peter Parker, with it barely being 6 months since he got his powers, it went from fun to a disaster faster than he could have taken a breath. In desperation, he turns to the sweet pull and lull of narcotics, breathtaking highs, and demtrimental lows. As he grapples to stay above the waves, he has decide what he truly wants. With the Stark Internship, his friendships and relationships hanging in the balance, will he choose to feel something, or everything?
WARNINGS: Drug Addiction, Drug Abuse, Rape And Graphic Sex(later chapers). Trigger warnings will be added into the beginning of each chapter.
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