Half-Past Reality: The Dissociated Sarah
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Ongoing7m
Last published Wed, Jun 26, 2019
Hey there! This is a story inspired by my real life experience with mental illness.
I went through five solid years of each and every medical treatment making me worse off than before. This led up to a medically induced mixed-mood-manic episode in 2018. In fact, the way I knew I was manic was by waking up one day out of the blue writing poetry. Something I had never done before but I couldn't stop writing poetry for ten solid months.
This book explores my real life frustration, hopelessness, and unorthodox ways of coping. I don't condone the use of dissociation from reality to cope, but, sometimes, reality is truly too much to bare.
This book deals with adult themes, mental illness, mental hospitals, mental illness treatment, medication, cursing, trauma, and suicidal ideation. Probably not suited for everyone but, for those of you that are ready, I hope it speaks to you.
This is my first time on Wattpad and my first time writing something that resembles a book. Thanks so much for taking the time to check out my work!
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