Fake friends

As I was on the swing just staring at my best friend wondering as if she was gay like me I didn't want to tell her that I liked her but I didn't have to bc we where on the bus for a field trip and she kept asking me to sit on her lap but it was weird so I asked why but she lied and said that her parents sat on her lap too but I knew she was lying but then she yelled out bc I like you I was really happy that she said that but at the same time did I really want to tell her I was gay that day I didn't really say anything about it few years later I had still liked her then I told her I was gay and that I liked her she promised she wouldn't tell anyone about it and then the next day my friend comes and ask why didn't I tell her that I was gay so I was mad at that person for a while and all she does is hang around this one per like she's her only friend when she told people that made me stop liking her the I had like someone else they already knew I was gay told them I liked them they promised too but something she told and k was mad at her and the she couldn't even give me a reason why she told I'm not telling anyone else if I like them only one person and that's it bc she never told one of my secrets