ReCREATION
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It was just a really confusing time. My entire life I've only been mimicking emotions I feel like. It's like I haven't ever felt anything and my entire life I've been playing this imitation game, where I play the alien while everyone else gets to experience human. All these makeshift feelings have been fueling me, and realising that has torn me aparit these past couple months. Having to generate feelings to give me a reason for everything I do- making friends and being social, writing, living- all of it needed new conviction. It took me a while to find that. I don't even know if I have as of this moment. But I know one thing. The same thing I've known my entire life, and the one thing that i feel was honest.
I can't give up.
This is the Recreation of me.
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