Truth and lies Nash Grier

I have cut myself in the past, and kind of still do, not a lot goes through my mind personally. But I suffer from a lot of emotional pain, I cut myself to get the rid of the numb kind of pain where the physical pain overpowers the emotional pain. I don't really think about it, I just do it because I know it will work (I guess I just decieve myself) till i meet a boy who saves my live from the living hell it was....