Dear Phoenix

Dear Phoenix.

i wonder if you ever look back and feel regret. do you ever feel sorry for what you did to me. do you even realize what you did to me. my first taste of real love and you made me starve. my blind faith and empathy. my trust and belief in you. do you think of me as foolish or beautiful for doing so. I do truly believe that you did love me once.
those first few months. i think that's when you loved me solely and fully. but something changed again. you were reminded that you would always be alone and even i couldn't fix that. maybe you thought hurting me would save me from you. because honestly. we both know i could never have saved you. nobody could. nobody did. but how hard I tried.