Infliction
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Last published Wed, Jan 7, 2015
Despite feeling like I’m about 5 years old and still wanting to believe someone can protect me from whatever cruelties exist in the world, I am turning 16 soon.
My journey from the age of 13 to 15 has been a tough one. Waking up and cursing my life was the only thing I used to do everyday, I felt useless and unwanted.
I had been diagnosed with attention deficit disorder and depression, and had self-esteem issues regarding my weight. I was described by my parents as a "bubbly, goofy" girl who enjoyed spending time with her friends and family, but little did they knew, what I was actually going through...self harm, skipping meals, the hate that i used to get everyday was getting over me.
Looking down the hill for a reason to live, I found someone. Someone who understood me, someone who listened to my endless rants and pulled me up the cliff.
Even after struggling every minute in my life, I survived, taking my revenge by prooving everyone wrong.
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I like inflicting pain. Not on others but on myself. Some people would call me depressed but I'm not. If anything the pain makes me happy. I started "self harming" at the mere age of nine. Or at least, that's what she called it. My therapist, I mean. She ended up giving me a life time supply of antidepressants and some shitty advice. I'm now eighteen, rotting in jail, and awaiting my death sentence. This is my story and if I'm quite honest, you don't want to hear it. +++ awards: ➵ Winner, Short Story Category, "Summer Book Awards" @Capybara100 ➵ Overall Winner, "Summer Book Awards" @Capybara100 status: ➵ started - 19/08/17 ➵ finished- 07/11/18 note: ➵ Please don't copy me. I don't appreciate it and will block you and report you. No writer likes to be copied and neither do readers. Readers want something which is unique and original.
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