If Only I Knew

What happens when your biggest dream turns to your worst nightmare.
It was a normal life before it started to change . Who knew u could read about something so special and love it dream for something so big only for it to turn out so wrong.
This books hold secrets that can't be told to the world, it holds lies that make a person happy but the truth that makes the human sad the truth hurts and to let it out and tell the world is the only pain killer.
There are over a trillion things in this book that this girl looks back at and cringe, cry, and mewl at it hurts to write it down, talk about it, even think about it you will hear it from far away her cries and whimpers as she thinks, talk, even write down what she went through.
Listen closely this is typed so you can read it a trillion time but will only truly understand it the first time you read it.
There are warnings on the first chapter.