philophobia

(n.) the fear of being in;
falling in love

the last thing i remember was a gunshot.

'amy!' something says in my mind.

it's my mom. my dad... i can barely remember anything.

'your dad shot my arm, then shot his stomach, honey. i'm sorry.'

'what is going on' i say, later realizing what had happened.

i was 7 then. little but i knew what was going on.

'amy. it's for the best,' she says exiting the hospital doors.

'mommy!' i said loudly.

she didnt reply.

the next 10 years hurt. i was switched from foster to foster home.

untill i wound up with the hendersons.