Gimme' shelter

Have you ever been so astonished over the fact that you have just come to the realisation that the only people you ever thought you could count on never really cared, I never was able to find peace in mind about what beautiful things were on the outside of these shallow walls that have surrounded my pain for nearly 9 years now, only because the ones who you thought that cared had left you at such a young age you were unable to find a family who loved you?. Help me uncover insidious mysterys and discover ways for me to live in light. What happened to me? Who am I?