Keeping Clean - HIATUS
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  • Parts 7
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Ongoing, First published Jul 19, 2019
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Hiatus 
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"I trust you. I know you. You aren't what your mom calls you. You are you, and beautiful."

"You can't believe that! I will never feel clean."

	"When then, I'll help you with that. 

"Why? Why would you?" My voice breaks as another sob comes out.

	"Because you make me sane. I guess you could say,... I need you too."

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Ever since Ashley's father left the house seven years ago, she has never felt happiness or peace. Her mother is always lecturing her and blaming her for their family problems.

The constant mental and physical abuse lead her to fear the touch of others, and being "contaminated". 

	Her mom is always there to remind her of how "unclean" she is and that she's filthy.  Her only escape from it is her art. And when Ashley's is given a chance to attend an art school and experience a normal high school life, she takes it. And she meets him.


	Cameron has been a born prodigy in the music industry and a music heartthrob. Ever since a young age, he has been singing for thousands of his fans. But he's never truly felt freedom.

	He has been attending the Prestigious Silverfang Art and Learning Academy, and it finally his senior year, where he decides to take a break in his career to deal with other problems and his future. But, when she comes to his school, how will they fall? 


Note-
All character, places, and events are not real. 
Warning- this book features some actions of abuse and self degrading/ anxiety.
Please do not plagiarize. Enjoy!
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For with God nothing shall be impossible. (Luke 1:37) ~~~~~ Jasper is a screwed up kid, yet no one cares enough to find out why. Bruises hide his arms and alcohol stains the walls of his house, but he pushes forward because it's the only thing left for him to do. His days are spent in and out of the school psychologist's office, while his nights are spent in fear of his father. His guitar and the secluded spot by the train tracks where he likes to play are the only saving graces in the hell that is his life. No one disrupted this normal routine until Callie came. Callie is far from screwed up; she doesn't have family issues and doesn't understand the first thing about Jasper's world. Her house is filled with answered prayers and smiles of people who love each other. Her arms are clear and her head is full of optimism that Jasper doesn't buy for a second. She never second guessed her sunny disposition on life until she stumbled upon a boy and his guitar down by the train tracks. Callie and Jasper weren't supposed to cross paths. She wasn't supposed to care and he wasn't supposed to let her get under his skin, but then again opposites weren't supposed to attract either. Callie saw the good in him where most people thought there was none ; she was captivated by Jasper because he made her question everything she knew about the world. She thought it would be easy to teach him that there was still good left in the world, that there was more beyond all the bad he'd become accustomed to. She thought fixing him would be easy, but nothing worthwhile is ever easy and sometimes it takes more than one girl's overly optimistic persistence to pull a person out of the hell they've been living in; sometimes it takes faith and realizing that some things can't be done without it... ~~~~~ -Highest Ranking: #8 in spiritual, 10/25/17 ; #1 in Christianity, 2019 -Wattpad Featured Novel: 10/19/17

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