Keeping Clean - HIATUS
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Ongoing, First published Jul 19, 2019
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Hiatus 
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"I trust you. I know you. You aren't what your mom calls you. You are you, and beautiful."

"You can't believe that! I will never feel clean."

	"When then, I'll help you with that. 

"Why? Why would you?" My voice breaks as another sob comes out.

	"Because you make me sane. I guess you could say,... I need you too."

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Ever since Ashley's father left the house seven years ago, she has never felt happiness or peace. Her mother is always lecturing her and blaming her for their family problems.

The constant mental and physical abuse lead her to fear the touch of others, and being "contaminated". 

	Her mom is always there to remind her of how "unclean" she is and that she's filthy.  Her only escape from it is her art. And when Ashley's is given a chance to attend an art school and experience a normal high school life, she takes it. And she meets him.


	Cameron has been a born prodigy in the music industry and a music heartthrob. Ever since a young age, he has been singing for thousands of his fans. But he's never truly felt freedom.

	He has been attending the Prestigious Silverfang Art and Learning Academy, and it finally his senior year, where he decides to take a break in his career to deal with other problems and his future. But, when she comes to his school, how will they fall? 


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All character, places, and events are not real. 
Warning- this book features some actions of abuse and self degrading/ anxiety.
Please do not plagiarize. Enjoy!
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Logan

32 parts Complete

*TW* Contains topics and scenes of sexual assault, self-harm, abuse.* "You know you loved every second of it," I can feel the tears welling up as well as the anger building up within me. I stare at him for a while before I have to turn away from his hungry gaze. "Look I just came here to tell you that I forgive you for what you did back in Cali and I'll take you back," "You forgive me?" I yell. "I did nothing to you. You raped me! You fucking raped me! You have no right to come here and tell me that. You. Forgive. Me. You traumatized me. What you did to me tore me up inside and was eating away at me until I tried to kill myself. And when I told people they didn't believe me. I had to listen to so many people talk about how great a guy you were and how I clearly just regretted sleeping with you. You are a monster. You made me hate myself for something that was never my fault. You have caused me so much pain and suffering," I pause to take a deep breath. "So you don't get to come here to my school and tell me you forgive me. You don't get to make me feel bad about coming forward. The only thing I regret is ever thinking you were a good person." _____________________________________________ Logan Young is a 16-year-old girl about to start her senior year in a brand new town. The past year has been tough and her family moved to give her a fresh start. Her life before the move had been hard and she had been spiraling. She quickly makes new friends and even enemies. She builds up walls to protect herself. But what happens when an unlikely person helps her to tear down her walls and heal. Will she be able to survive in this new place and keep her secrets intact?

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