When you think of a nerd, or a geek, or even a socially awkward girl, you'll most likely picture a girl with glasses, who dresses nicely, who gets bullied and all that stuff.
But what you most certainly don't picture, is a girl capable of slapping the most popular guy in highschool with a book and kicking him in the middle of the legs when he starts flirting with her.
Well, then... meet Caroline Meadows. The nerd who is capable of doing that, who has a crazy obsessive shipper fangirl best friend, a brother almost as odd as her, who does wear glasses and whatever she first grabs from her wardrobe, who is not afraid of her school's Queen Bee, who is capable of smarting you down and much more.
But will that be forever? Or will someone appear and turn her life upside down? Or will she simply build her way out of the messy situation that her life will once again turn into?
Well, one thing she is definitely not certained of: will she be able to do it all by herself and forever live as just "Me, Myself and I"?
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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