Still Trying

"They say:Be true to yourself and nothing will go wrong, but sometimes I wonder, how can you be true to yourself when you don't even know who you are anymore"

Way too young to be living like this .

"𝗧𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗶𝘀 𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝘀𝗲𝗰𝗿𝗲𝘁 𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆, 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝘁𝗲𝗹𝗹 𝗻𝗼𝗯𝗼𝗱𝘆." "𝗡𝗶𝗴𝗴𝗮 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗰𝗮𝗻'𝘁 𝗯𝗲 𝗮 𝘀𝗲𝗰𝗿𝗲𝘁 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘁𝗼𝗼 𝗹𝗼𝗻𝗴.." 𝗛𝗶𝘀 𝘀𝗲𝗰𝗿𝗲𝘁, 𝗛𝗲𝗿 𝘀𝗲𝗰𝗿𝗲𝘁, 𝗧𝗵𝗲𝗶𝗿 𝘀𝗲𝗰𝗿𝗲𝘁. 𝗪𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗾𝘂𝗶𝗲𝘁 𝗴𝗶𝗿𝗹 𝗻𝗼𝗯𝗼𝗱𝘆 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲𝘀 𝘄𝗶𝗻𝗱𝘀 𝘂𝗽 𝗽𝗿𝗲𝗴𝗻𝗮𝗻𝘁, 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝗯𝗼𝗱𝘆 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱𝗻'𝘁 𝗵𝗲𝗹𝗽 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝘄𝗼𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗿 𝘄𝗵𝗼 𝗱𝗶𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗱𝗲𝗲𝗱, 𝗢𝗻𝗹𝘆 𝘁𝗼 𝗳𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝘀𝘁 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲𝗱 𝗯𝗼𝘆 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗴𝗿𝗮𝗱𝗲 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗽𝗼𝗻𝘀𝗶𝗯𝗹𝗲.. 𝗖𝗼𝗿𝗲𝘆 𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝗭𝗼𝗿𝗲𝗶𝗮 𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝗻𝗼𝗯𝗼𝗱𝘆 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝗮𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱... 𝗭𝗼𝗿𝗲𝗶𝗮 𝗱𝗶𝗱𝗻'𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝗵𝗶𝗺 𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗹𝗹, 𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆 𝘁𝗼 𝗴𝗲𝘁 𝗯𝗮𝗰𝗸 𝗮𝘁 𝗮 𝗳𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗱. 𝘇𝗼𝗿𝗲𝗶𝗮𝘅𝗰𝗼𝗿𝗲𝘆

First time for everything. Right?

𝖭𝖺𝗆𝖺𝗋𝗂 𝗂𝗌 𝗂𝗇 𝗁𝖾𝗋 senior𝗒𝖾𝖺𝗋 𝗈𝖿 𝗁𝗂𝗀𝗁 𝗌𝖼𝗁𝗈𝗈𝗅 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗌𝗁𝖾 𝗆𝖾𝖾𝗍𝗌 𝗌𝗈𝗆𝖾 𝗇𝖾𝗐 𝗉𝖾𝗈𝗉𝗅𝖾. 𝖲𝗁𝖾'𝗌 𝗍𝗈𝗋𝗇 𝖻𝖾𝗍𝗐𝖾𝖾𝗇 𝗍𝗐𝗈 𝗉𝖾𝗈𝗉𝗅𝖾 𝖲𝖾𝗏𝗒𝗇 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝖩𝖺𝗒𝗏𝖾𝗈𝗇. 𝖤𝗏𝖾𝗇 𝗍𝗁𝗈𝗎𝗀𝗁 𝖲𝖾𝗏𝗒𝗇 𝗌𝖼𝗋𝖾𝗐𝗌 𝗎𝗉 𝗆𝗎𝗅𝗍𝗂𝗉𝗅𝖾 𝗍𝗂𝗆𝖾𝗌 𝗌𝗁𝖾 𝗄𝖾𝖾𝗉𝗌 𝗀𝗈𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖻𝖺𝖼𝗄 𝗌𝗁𝖾 𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾𝗌 𝗁𝗂𝗆. 𝖡𝗎𝗍 𝖩𝖺𝗒𝗏𝖾𝗈𝗇 𝗂𝗌 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋𝖾 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋𝗒𝗍𝗂𝗆𝖾 𝖲𝖾𝗏 𝖽𝗈𝖾𝗌 𝗌𝗈𝗆𝖾𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗐𝗋𝗈𝗇𝗀. 𝖲𝗈 𝗐𝗁𝗈 𝗐𝗂𝗅𝗅 𝗂𝗍 b𝖾? 𝖳𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗈𝗋 𝖳𝗁𝖺𝗍

𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝐅𝐀𝐓𝐄 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘵𝘰𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘸𝘰 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘴, 𝘴𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘬𝘴 𝘧𝘭𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘶𝘯𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘢𝘺. 𝘍𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘫𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘦𝘺 𝘰𝘧 𝘖𝘮𝘺𝘳𝘪 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘌𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘯𝘢𝘷𝘪𝘨𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘶𝘱𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦, 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘤𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘱 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘱𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘢 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘴 𝘢 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦. 𝘞𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘭𝘢𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘦𝘳, 𝘵𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢 𝘥𝘢𝘴𝘩 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘵𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴, 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘪𝘳 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘺 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘤𝘢𝘱𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘣𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘦𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘨𝘪𝘤 𝘰𝘧 𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐄 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄.

Two teens. Three babies on the way. One crazy life.

𝐖𝐞 𝐰𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐤 𝐨𝐟 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐟𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐬𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐬 𝐀 𝐍𝐞𝐰 𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭, 𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐭'𝐬 𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐑𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐅𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐆𝐞𝐭𝐬 𝐖𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐌𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐁𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐓𝐨 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐇𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐨𝐰𝐧. 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐓𝐰𝐨 𝐆𝐢𝐫𝐥𝐬 𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐆𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐓𝐨 𝐀 𝐍𝐞𝐰 𝐒𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐥, 𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐀𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐫𝐞 𝐍𝐞𝐰 𝐅𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬, 𝐀𝐬 𝐓𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐈𝐭'𝐬 𝐀 𝐍𝐞𝐰 𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞, 𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐏𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐒𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐋𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐖𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐦, 𝐄𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐀𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐇𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐝 𝐈𝐧 𝐍𝐞𝐰 𝐘𝐨𝐫𝐤. ©AsheraJones 2021 Started: October 2019 Rewritten: May 2021 Published: August 2021 #1 in #highschoolstories (25.10.21) #1 in #newlovestory (31.10.21) #12 in #familysecrets (18.06.22) #1 in #newfriends (12.12.23)