DESCRUCTIVE THINKING
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Last published Wed, Dec 5, 2018
I've always said that I have to be in a certain mood for my feelings to truly be expressed back on paper. And for a while it was all good, my writing suffered but I was happy and not in this particular mindset where I had to write in order to relieve myself of the negative thoughts and emotions in my head. Tonight I was reminded of the saying "never say never" as cliche as that sounds. But I'll be ok though, I just need to get this off my chest.
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