Dear unknown...
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I have become addicted to a drug...
Something, I always wanted to prevent from happening...
But it looks like, my efforts were for nothing...
This drug?
It's you...
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He-?- or she-?- is thinking daily about a boy-?- or a girl-?-
Or is this person even thinking about something completly different...?
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This are going to be several stories or rather diaries of thoughts inside the head of a person.
As you can already guess, this „stories" leave a lot of space for the fantasy and interpretation of the reader.
❌do not read this❌
if u can't bear with emotional/ -less thoughts
Have fun!
Suggestions, criteria or ideas are always welcome!
-> Should I make a german version of it?
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