Raped: A Memoir (2019)
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*#1 in true story, 8/14/19*
I guess you could say I'm going through some shit.
What you're about to read are a series of journal entries following my survival of rape. Each update emerges from the deepest, most sorrowful recesses of my mind, so I caution you to proceed with gentleness and compassion.
WARNING: I do not want pity, nor do I want any comment that says "I hope you're doing better," or "I hope you're okay now." It is my firm belief and ambition to allow myself the honor of not being okay. Humanity loves happy endings, but to get to a happy ending, you must first go through the process. I'm in the process. I'll get to the happy ending eventually, but please... don't choose to focus on the future and project that upon me while I'm sinking in the present.
Now, without further ado... I welcome you into my story.
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