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I Have No Idea What I'm Doing

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Alyvia Moore prides herself on being a 24 year old does-not-know-it-all. She might be a drunk, and for a long time, she was fully functioning. Life has a funny way of catching up to you, though, and while she learns to navigate her feelings and how to process unrequited love, she has to learn how to let go. Let go of her past, let go of her exes, her expectations, but most of all, her drinking habits. 
So far, life isn't what she thought it would be - and once she settles into that, it's only up from there. It's a matter of realizing that rock bottom is a starting point, and it's up to her how she's going to get to the top - if she gets there at all.All Rights Reserved

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Page Break // Complete by 3Locke

Tallulah Page needs a break. She's hardly ever got time for herself; she's a senior in school, on the cross-country team, is a straight A student, and has been organising children's parties since she was sixteen to earn some money. With the prospect of branching into other types of parties to plan, ultimately wanting to run her own business someday, she desperately needs to enlist someone to help her with the growth of her ambitions. But she needs a rest from being run off her feet all day, every day. All she can do is put an advertisement in the local newspapers with her name, number and a desperate plea and begin to play the waiting game. And the help she desperately needs may come along sooner than she first thought.

His Ruthless Temptation by Plumavenetta

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Her Breaking Point by AuthorOliviaGrace

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Running Screaming

For 25 year old Amara Danvers, her life had gone to hell. She was stuck in an abusive relationship with a man who she loved but no longer wanted to be with. Trapped in a state far away from her family, no one to rely on. Her boyfriend's family shunned and ostracized her, looked the other way as she was repeatedly abused... Can life go on like this? What happens when everything... Even the tables change in a single night? "I don't want to live like this anymore!" "Then don't live. No one will ever love you." "Please! Stop hurting me! What did I do to deserve this?" "Ask yourself that... No one wants you. You deserve this. You'll never find anyone better." When the wheels stop spinning and everything goes dark.... "GET RID OF IT!" "STOP YOU'RE HURTING ME!" Will she have the strength to survive? To walk away? This is NOT a work of fiction. This is Real. This happened. This happened specifically to me. I am just telling my story. Names have been changed. Warning ⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️ This story depicts: Abuse Depression Trauma Recovery Unplanned Pregnancy Self Harm PTSD Mature themes Domestic Violence Please, if any of this is triggering, this is not for you. This is going to be very deep, depicting heavy trauma and I would rather you not read it if it is counterproductive to your mental health! If you are going through ANY of this, please contact your local domestic abuse hotline OR pm me and I will try to find you help.