I Have No Idea What I'm Doing
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MatureOngoing2h 29m
Last published Wed, Feb 12, 2020
Alyvia Moore prides herself on being a 24 year old does-not-know-it-all. She might be a drunk, and for a long time, she was fully functioning. Life has a funny way of catching up to you, though, and while she learns to navigate her feelings and how to process unrequited love, she has to learn how to let go. Let go of her past, let go of her exes, her expectations, but most of all, her drinking habits.
So far, life isn't what she thought it would be - and once she settles into that, it's only up from there. It's a matter of realizing that rock bottom is a starting point, and it's up to her how she's going to get to the top - if she gets there at all.
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