My thoughts

My thoughts

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MatureOngoing<5 mins

Last published Tue, Jul 30, 2019

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Just a book filled with my thoughts that are never spoken and only ever make it as far as my laptop. These were all written late at night so ...

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In which two insomniacs bond over mutual dark eye circles and that feeling of emptiness that occurs right around the 4am point. [#34 short story]

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