Whatever Will I Be Without You?
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Last published Thu, Aug 27, 2020
"The rhythm of his heart in this moment could only be alike to that of a drum, pounding to the beat soldiers must march; heavy, with meaning pulsing with every strike to the buffalo hide stretched taut across the wooden, cylindrical frame his chest embodied.
He ran. He ran until his throat burned with the intoxication of her presence. The lingering sensation on his tongue of the words, smooth as gin taken in savoured gulps, that left his dried lips, to disappear into inaudible fragments that the breaking of she alone would witness."
When tragedy strikes, sometimes all it takes to pull a soul from the raging waters of hurt and denial, is a new girl nextdoor. But will Sebastian be able to overcome the loss of everything to no longer ponder the possibility of 'what if?'. As his heart begins to thaw, only then will the broken pieces lose their hold, and begin to drop and shatter to the floor, alongside his sanity.
"Whatever Will I Be Without You?" Is a StronkieBerry original that shows the haunting dangers of love and the impacts that can last a lifetime, however short such can be.
*I do not own the characters of Stardew Valley, the songs used for each chapter, or the pictures and art that are featured in the cover*
****There are aspects of depression and deaths early on in this story and physiological deterioration will be coming further on! If these are topics you cannot handle or cope with, please put your own mental health first and avoid reading this story!! All Wattpad users are lovely and deserve to stay safe and healthy <3
I also do apologize for the sloppy writing in the first five chapters; revisions are something I'm getting around to but I'm mainly focusing on current chapters! This is my first ever story but I think it's been growing well!
I hope you enjoy,
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