Gardens & Graves
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Last published Fri, Sep 20, 2019
-• I am messed up. I am fake and act like a bitch to others. I would hug my friends because they felt sad, and I wouldn't feel any type of emotion towards them. When I would date people, they'd tell me they love me and I'd say it back, not meaning it at all. Everyone describes me as sweet, nice, caring, always smiling. I put up an act to protect myself from being hurt again. And that causes me to be a total bitch on the inside. And yes, maybe I am mean, cruel, and crazy to think such things. But sometimes someone can just breathe and I'll want to body slam them. My sister says that when I'm mad, I look like I can kill someone. And maybe I am crazy and a bitch. But I wouldn't change a thing I did nor what I thought. Karma is a bitch, and it already bit me. I can't wait to see what the future hold for me. •-
[ this story is about my real life experiences and my true thoughts on it; it may get violent, rude, triggering, and offensive to others so if you read this story don't go bitching to me in the comments. Thank you, come again. ]
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