shit been weird

this book isn't going to be edited or spell checked or have preoper grammar bc i honestly couldn't care any less and this is just for me to rant about everything goin on in depth and not be judged for it. WARNING this book is not for children i will go in depth about deression, anxiety, gender dysphoria and other topics involving mental disorders and i will also talk about my personal overuse of drugs and alcohol and self harm, sexual experiences (both forced and not), attempted suicide, relationships, abuse (mental and physical), and other adult topics. if you are sensitive to certain material i would not recommend and this book will not be my way of asking for, sympathy, empathy, support, help, anything this is my way of getting my help by turning my passion into my way of letting things out, i have a wonderful amazing boyfriend/bestfriend that i am madly in love with that i can talk to i have also built a close bond with my counselor and i teach her every day about my gender, sexuality and just about me and she helps me with everything so im all set i will just use this as my way of getting clean. because being a drug addict isn't what i want and such a young age, even though it has already happened, i am struggling through withdrawls and abuse, but im making my way through also my parents know about my drug and alcohol abuse and thats why im trying to get clean to keep my dad alive because if i go down the same path as him he will actually kill himself and i couldn't ever live with that, so im trying to fix my life with this book. i was going to make this short but i had a lot to say anything else that needs to be said will be put in the intro chapter. i wont be starting it yet because im still struggling a bit to hid and use my laptop but i haven't gotten caught with it yet and i just want to remind anyone who worries about me when they read this book i am fine, im recovering, im getting better and this is me bettering my life. 4-8-19 Alexander