stepbrother misunderstood | jhs

you wouldn't understand.
and even if you wanted to, it wouldn't make any sense to you.

you see.. it's not that simple, falling in love, you don't choose who to fall in love with, it chooses you

and once it chooses you, it follows you like a lost pup called 'first love'

it follows until it can't no more, until either you or 'it' is exhausted.

but my first love wasn't an adorable soft pup, it was like a monster that waited and waited for the right moment to strike and to ruin everything.

if only i had killed the hungry monster before it got to the point of no turning back.

if only i had ended it all.

i think i lost it all.