where's my happy ending?

this is a personal journal from my life. In it are my stories, feelings, and thoughts. I am currently not in a good place so here I am writing it all out in hopes that maybe it'll make me feel better. please be kind and know that I am not perfect but I am trying my hardest. I hope you enjoy and maybe can relate in a way where this is helpful to you.

trigger warnings: eating disorder, self harm, death