Sleepless nights
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Last published Wed, Oct 23, 2019
this could be rants? its just really negative and depressimg stories,
⚠so if you deal with any deppression, suicidal tendencies, anxiety, paranoia, or self harm, or others, just beware ⚠ 🛇 this has a lot of abuse, self harm, mentions of rape, suicide attempts/suicide🛇 this isnt to promote any of these subjects, maybe to raise awareness but i dont really know.
⚠if you deal with deppression, abuse, self harm, suicidal thoughts or other things along that line please call for help with your local suicide or crisis line, or get help online/ talk to a friend, parent or guardian, doctor, teacher, or therapist if you have one.⚠
side note: I know things might seem dark and you don't want to "burden" people with your promblems, but you are loved and whoever you choose to tell those problems too should do anything in their power to help you. remember you deserve only the best and I love you 💜
-Nikki
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