Dissociated
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MatureOngoing7m
Last published Tue, Mar 17, 2020
CONTENT WARNING:
Contains strong language, physical/sexual abuse, trauma, mental disorders, dissociative identity disorder, self harm, drinking, drug use, sex/mentions of sex and homophobic/transphobic language.
Please refrain from reading, or read at your own risk, if any of that brings you discomfort.
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Casper Lee James is a 15-year-old transgender male living in the busy city of Toronto, Ontario. His mother died 3 years ago from a drug overdose, and his father hasn't been right in the head since Casper was born. Thomas James is an abusive alcoholic, and has been taking from Casper since he was 5 years old. Casper's innocence was stolen from him at a young age, and since then, there have been multiple people inside Casper's mind helping him through the trauma's life throws his way.
Casper has Dissociative Identity Disorder (see prologue for definition), and has been professionally diagnosed since he was 9 years old. Casper has been in therapy since the age of 6, when his mother - however, oblivious to her husband's abusive ways - decided that, due to his lack of speaking openly about his feelings and the demons that haunted him, her son would benefit from speaking to a licensed professional.
Now entering the tenth grade, Casper meets Jacob Holmes; captain of the sophomore year football team, and straight-A student. Having been so used to letting no one past the walls he's built up inside, Casper can't help but raise his guard when Jacob tries so hard to get inside Casper's mind, and help the wrecked boy.
Choices must be made, and sometimes hearts must be broken, but in the end, fantasy and reality have no place with each other.
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