Half of me

I'm getting nervous, my palms are sweating, and my breath rhythm have speed up. I've never thought of myself as bisexual. I don't know, I feel if my family and friends find out about it, they would get this illusion that I'm not confident or sure about my self-esteem any longer? They prob think "oh, he's just insecure. Or he has changed". And whys that?

Maybe because I'm a stereotypical white boy. It's just how it turned out. I dress as everyone else, act like everyone else and maybe I think like everyone else? And suddenly I'm supposed to turn the table and become this love maniac, and all I talk about is love is love! Maybe get my nails painted too. I chuckle of the thought.
Maybe I am insecure? Kind of a4. But hey. No one had seen a different side of me until Milano came along. That's when I got new cards to bring to the table.

«Watchu want?» says Milano with a tease voice. I just stare at him, raise my eyebrow and poke him with my index finger. Just hard enough to give him a tilt. Like he doesn't know. I could prob turn this into a way to get myself some fun, or something else...

Should I choose the flirty, risky or the safe way to perform this?

I pause. I see his eyes widen, while he waits for an answer.
"You. Dummy" I say while I narrow my eyes and give him an affirmative nod in his direction. You should have seen his face. Such a little thing can be so meaningful. He just smiled from ear to ear, so childish.

Oh darn, my heart just skipped a beat.