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I don't live, I only exist

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Parts 6
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Reads 795
Votes 23
Parts 6
Time 34m

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angst aonoexorcist blueexorcist bullying demons depressed fluff fluffstuff gore ihatetags love rinokumura ryujisuguro sad yaoi

Ao no Exorcist/Blue Exorcist fanfiction

probably BonxRin too so if you don't ship it I'm not sorry (mabye you will change your mind 😏)

and it's gonna be sad probably 


i like writing sad things

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING⚠️
may contains:
sad things
self hatered
selfharm
depression
blood
may be gore
and other things that type

oh and maybe spoilers idk

Have FUN :3All Rights Reserved

angst aonoexorcist blueexorcist bullying demons depressed fluff fluffstuff gore ihatetags love rinokumura ryujisuguro sad yaoi

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Stereo Love | Aquamarine x Male Oc by Melzxkie

All the things that I need. All the things that you need. You can make it feel so real. Because you can't deny, You've blown mind. When I see your body, I feel I'm losing control. Because you can't deny, You've blown my mind. When I see you baby, I just don't want to let go. - I hate to see you cry, Your smile is a Beautiful lie. I hate to see you cry, My love is dying inside. I can fix all those lies. Oh baby, baby I run, but I'm running to you. You won't see me cry, I'm hiding inside. My heart is in pain, But I'm smiling for you. ♡ Aqua x M!OC This story will follow the Anime for Season one! When it's finished I'll move on to the Manga. Remember English isn't my first language so there may be some mistakes! Started- 6/24/2023 or 24/6/2023 Status- Season 1- Finished Manga- Ongoing

Satan's Spawn (Bon x Rin) by blacksteel97

When everyone hates you and you also hate yourself is there any hope when the person you love hurts you the most why feel? When your reasons to live are over why keep living? This is my story I am Rin Okumura I am hated because I am a demon not only that but I am satan's spawn... 'Oh Rin if only you knew how much I love you I'm sorry'... ⚠TRIGGER WARNING⚠: contains self-harm and suicidal thoughts!!

Leashed | • • • | Blue Exorcist by 19FandomTrash98

"A child that is not embraced by the village will burn it down to feel its warmth." You can only repress your emotions for so long. At some point you'll find yourself a hairpin away from a catastrophic breakdown. What will be the detonator? The loss of a loved one, the reveal of a lifelong lie, becoming public enemy number one, your inevitable death? And once you reach rock bottom, where do you go from there? Do you succumb to your fate, or do you latch onto something to help you kick back up to the surface? What if that something was someone else, and what if latching onto them dragged them into the abyss with you, would you still try to survive? Massive trigger warnings: self harm and suicide. This is a dead dove labeled in bold letters, consume at your own risk. Rated #7 in #Yukio

Under The Silence by CousinNightmare

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Goretober 2024 by namescape

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