A Million And One Reasons Why I Hate Myself.
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Last published Tue, Aug 26, 2014
It's dark out. I swear, I keep hearing something behind me, but every time I turn around, nothing is there. Maybe im just paranoid, I get like that sometimes. I hate walking alone in the dark, it's always so scary.
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A Million And One Reasons Why I Hate Myself is a story about a girl named Kate, who is facing some really hard times. You see, she has this secret, a secret that she won't tell anyone. Not her parents, her siblings, not even her bestfriend. That is until she meets a guy who already knows her secret.
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