The Horizontal Ballet

How did I end up here, in the most uncomfortable situation of my entire life,
(And my mother has walked in on me squatting naked over a mirror to see if my vagina was 'normal looking' )

My fiancé Matthew is livid, throwing daggers with his eyes across the table at everyone,

Everyone but me is completely oblivious to this of course.

They are all too busy fawning over Caleb, gushing about the old times,

Showing baby photos of myself and caleb running around naked with a nappy on my head

Caleb,

The one I was infatuated with for my entire adolescence.

The one who broke my heart and left me to pick up the pieces

The one that has just waltzed back into my life after 10 years,

The one that just happens to be my new leading man,

Its opening night, we are all meant to be celebrating the shows successful opening,

The Horizontal Ballet

A completely erotic awakening, portrayed through 'Ballet',

and I say ballet in air quote because a lot of it feels like dry humping on a stage, I once described it to my fiancé as soft porn when I was determined to turn down the role,

It was him that pushed me not to quit the first day I saw the choreography,

He didn't mind at the time how raunchy the show was, even though I was explicitly clear how much touching was involved between me and the leading male role,

He still didn't seem to mind that my former (gay) leading man had been replaced 2 weeks before opening,

He still didn't seem to mind as he and my family were giving me a standing ovation, after watching the porno we basically just took part in, in front of an audience of 1500 people,

What he does seem to mind,

is that this 6ft3 Norse God, that was cast 2 weeks before opening,

just happened to be my first love,

and I may have forgotten to tell him that information,