Human. || phan
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"Some people spend their whole lives looking for someone to live for. Someone that would make them feel alive, make them enjoy life and make them see the light even in the darkest of days. Someone that would rescue them from the dark pit they call their lives. I never wanted to be like that. I wanted to be the hero of my own life. I wanted to be the person who saved me, because I didn't need another half to be whole...
Until you showed up at that stupid bathroom and made me start remembering that the world isn't always dark and filled with shadows."
Trigger warnings for mentions of self harm, strong language, use of violence, and mentions of drug use.
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