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If Only I Was Smarter

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Alicia just started high school she is love with her middle school boyfriend she thinks he truly understand her but after summer break everything changes. 

During her freshman year she runs into this brown skinned stud and that's  where all her limits are tested. Her secrets along with her families secrets comes to hunt her along the way.... Will she survive highschool let alone freshman year?


Amari never met her dad it has just been her and her mom running for as long as she could remember. At her new school decides to stop running when she meets boy of her dreams. As all is well things begin slipping  when his brother comes back to town & his family secrets come out and her family secrets come out will she be able to handle it all. 

Join Alicia & Amari, their friends & their families. Their lovers and enemies. As they navigate high school being scholars at The Athletic & Ingenious Academy & regular life with drama, trauma & betrayal.All Rights Reserved

abuse depression freshman graduation highschool junior lgbt newbook pregnancy ptsd selfharm senior sophomore suicidalthoughts suicideattempt teen-mom teenlove teenromance youngromance

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DROP OUT by PerfectlyUnperfect27

IM CURRENTLY RE WRITING THIS STORY: If you would like to read this version please read at your own risk and my new version will be up very soon, thank you! Alexandra Forest watched her parents get murdered at the age of 7. Now years have passed, she dropped out of school, going house to house in the foster system, and always looking for a new 'high' to escape her reality. That is until she's caught shop lifting, she's forced into a home and forced to go to school only to be stopped by a certain group of boys. Sebastian Peters father left for another woman, soon after his father abandonment to his family, Sebastian's older sister, Danielle, overdosed. Leaving him to take care of his mentally ill mother. School thinks he's some bad boy with no secrets and a perfect life. Wrong. He has secret and he's not a bad boy, (maybe a bit rebellious at times) and he certainly doesn't have a perfect life. And maybe, just maybe if Alex lets him into her dark world he can light it up. ****** I really hope you guys like this new story and remember to vote and comment. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED TO ME @PerfectlyUnperfect27

Keeping A Painful Reminder by KitStrawberry

Trinity is a normal teenage girl about to start high school until one awful night. She spends the following months going through all the ups and downs of being a pregnant teen and a rape victim all in one. Her personal beliefs keep her from aborting the baby. She honestly can't even see herself putting it up for adoption seeing as she herself was a former foster kid. The only one she can count on is her childhood friend Chris. Follow Trinitys journey of becoming a mother with Chris's support. THIS IS MY FIRST EVER STORY! PLEASE DONT TRASH MY STORYLINE OR GRAMMER BUT HELPFUL CRITICIZING IS WELCOME thank you!

Don't Give Up On Me ✔ by Karenj128

Every high schooler says that high school is hell, but for an eighteen-year-old, Isla, it really is. For someone who is so sweet and pure she doesn't deserve the torment she obtains daily at school. Her social life is thrown down the drain freshman year when her ex-best friend gets rejected by one of the school's bad boys because he is interested in Isla instead. After three years of being bullied and not having a single friend, things start to change when the school's three bad boys decide they aren't going to allow Isla to suffer alone anymore. With the attention, Isla is receiving from the school's bad boys her ex-best friend wants to destroy her even more and bring down her new friends. As things start to look up for Isla, tragedy hits her family and her whole world comes tumbling down causing pain and conflict between Isla, her family, and her new friends. With new responsibilities that no high schooler should have, Isla tries her best to make it through each day. Will her new friends stay by her side or will they turn out to be like everyone else? With secrets, lies, hate, tragedy, friendship, high school crushes, fighting, and love will Isla be able to make it through her senior year, or will she let it bury her alive? **This is not your typical story** Updates: Completed Ranked #1 in #Newadult on June 14, 2022

The Light in the Darkness by Heidi-Lynn

Jace is the bad boy, all tatted up. He's pretty much the head of the school with a rep. Every girl wants him even the English teacher. Every guy wants to be him. He's hurting inside. All he is is misunderstood. 17 year old Zoe is the new girl. Her mom got a new job and they had to move. For Zoe, she's hoping to start fresh and new, Zoe gets bullied. She never knew why though but years of it she is starting to believe the things they say are true. She battled with eating disorders and self harming. Her mom doesn't know, in fact no one does. She just wants to fit in with the prettiest. What happens when Jace and Zoe's worlds collide? Everything changed but is it for the best? What does this bad boy want with this down to earth girl. Music is the only thing they really share, or is it? Includes-self harming, eating disorder, language. There is sex, so just warning you if you are under 13

SKINTIGHT (Watty Awards 2024) by frangipanii

Violet Ferrari is at breaking point. Moving out of home was supposed to fix her problems, not exacerbate them. All the shit she tried to escape, came right along with her - the grief, the guy, the pain. It won't go away. She's spiralling. One misstep, and it's over for her. Rio Valenti has fought his whole life to make it to this point. The start of his professional basketball career is just around the corner. He can't lose focus now, not with his criminal ties hanging over his head. He's on the edge. One misstep, and it's over for him. The rainy college town should have been their safe haven - the wetlands surrounding it a moat separating them from their pasts. The two meet in their freshmen year, with little in common but their social circles. Violet spends her days numb - hiding from the pain in any way she can. Rio runs from his. He's out from dawn to dusk, if not on the court, then scrounging up money for food or finding somewhere to sleep other than his car. What divides them most... is hope. Rio has it. Violet doesn't.

Logan by braindeadwriter06

*TW* Contains topics and scenes of sexual assault, self-harm, abuse.* "You know you loved every second of it," I can feel the tears welling up as well as the anger building up within me. I stare at him for a while before I have to turn away from his hungry gaze. "Look I just came here to tell you that I forgive you for what you did back in Cali and I'll take you back," "You forgive me?" I yell. "I did nothing to you. You raped me! You fucking raped me! You have no right to come here and tell me that. You. Forgive. Me. You traumatized me. What you did to me tore me up inside and was eating away at me until I tried to kill myself. And when I told people they didn't believe me. I had to listen to so many people talk about how great a guy you were and how I clearly just regretted sleeping with you. You are a monster. You made me hate myself for something that was never my fault. You have caused me so much pain and suffering," I pause to take a deep breath. "So you don't get to come here to my school and tell me you forgive me. You don't get to make me feel bad about coming forward. The only thing I regret is ever thinking you were a good person." _____________________________________________ Logan Young is a 16-year-old girl about to start her senior year in a brand new town. The past year has been tough and her family moved to give her a fresh start. Her life before the move had been hard and she had been spiraling. She quickly makes new friends and even enemies. She builds up walls to protect herself. But what happens when an unlikely person helps her to tear down her walls and heal. Will she be able to survive in this new place and keep her secrets intact?

Everything Hurts by analiciapaloma

I knew what was coming later tonight, not only at home, but on the way there. I knew that reacting right now would just make it worse though. So I kept quiet and pretended that I was not dreading when I would be alone with the man that stood beside me, wondering when it became so normal to do so. Jason and Alicia have the perfect relationship from the outside looking in, but Alicia has kept her wounded spirit and body hidden well. After another one of Jason's violent rages that is impossible to hide, Alicia is finally able to get away from the abuse though. In the process of healing, she begins to relearn what trust, compassion, and safety are once again - that is, until Jason discovers her whereabouts. All Rights Reserved © Copyrights analiciapaloma 2014 © 2017 edits by Analicia Feliciano Book Cover Design by Analicia Feliciano (FIRST FOUR CHAPTERS *ORIGINAL AND UNEDITED* AVAILABLE HERE. PUBLISHED E-BOOK/PAPERBACK EDITION AVAILABLE ON AMAZON. LINK IN BIO.)

Outrunning Karma | MxM by ElijahDiva

After the traumatic events of his past Caleb has forged a new life for himself with Jason in a place nobody knows them, or so he thinks. Will him and Jason's newfound love stand the test of time and can old acquaintance be forgot? **THIS IS A SEQUEL TO "THE NAUGHTY LIST" I RECOMMEND YOU READ THAT FIRST BEFORE READING THIS** TWs Self Harm Smut PTSD Mentions of Rape, Abuse & Sexual Assault This story is not promoting, encouraging, romanticising or glorifying topics such as abuse, suicide, self harm, disordered eating, sexual abuse/misconduct or anything like that, it is just showing what the affects of it can be like especially for LGBT+ young people. Please be respectful in the comments and if anyone is struggling do reach out for support!

Moonbound Protection (BXB) by TysonIsGay

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DROP OUT

IM CURRENTLY RE WRITING THIS STORY: If you would like to read this version please read at your own risk and my new version will be up very soon, thank you! Alexandra Forest watched her parents get murdered at the age of 7. Now years have passed, she dropped out of school, going house to house in the foster system, and always looking for a new 'high' to escape her reality. That is until she's caught shop lifting, she's forced into a home and forced to go to school only to be stopped by a certain group of boys. Sebastian Peters father left for another woman, soon after his father abandonment to his family, Sebastian's older sister, Danielle, overdosed. Leaving him to take care of his mentally ill mother. School thinks he's some bad boy with no secrets and a perfect life. Wrong. He has secret and he's not a bad boy, (maybe a bit rebellious at times) and he certainly doesn't have a perfect life. And maybe, just maybe if Alex lets him into her dark world he can light it up. ****** I really hope you guys like this new story and remember to vote and comment. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED TO ME @PerfectlyUnperfect27