Unspoken Misery
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Last published Thu, Nov 14, 2019
Not that I can't speak but it feels like everyone is deaf.
Deaf? No, Its more like you people wearing headphones by intention.
Not that I can't show but you People seems Blind.
Blind? or just trying to look away?
I am also Human, I do get tired and hurt.
I do need someone i can lean on~
I do need a home, not just some shelter with roof and walls.
I do need warmth, not a hot water filling my stomach nor sitting in front of a bonfire.
Can you blame me now that I'm tainted? that I became sinful?
Now that I mistakenly thought that The Warmth Ive been longing for, that the home Ive been wishing to have can be replaced by An Embrace burning with pure lust.
Can you Possibly blame me even you people started it?
Im Fucking Unwanted and Hated.
Im just.. Lonely.
and Need company.
Can you please take me away and keep me?
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