Overdose

First off, as young boy i was, unlike everyone else around me, shy. I've never been the type of guy to get all of the girls numbers in school. I've never been the type of guy to go home with a friend after school. I've never been the type of guy to go to birthday parties when and IF i got invited. Ive always been the "outkast". Ever since I was in elementary, ive been different from everyone else. While all of my friends and everyone else around me tried so desperately to fit in, i was the reclusive one. My friends wanted to be popular. My friends wanted to be umongst the so-called gods. It seemed and still seems like almost everyone i know and or knew has succumbed into the ways of the world. I did not want to be cool with the popular kids, and i did not want to do what the popular kids did, or at least that's what i told myself. Deep down i was just scared, i've always had great intuition. I can usually tell when something isn't right or when something seems as if it could get out of hand. That's what i felt when i was around them. They would be doing things that not only were dangerous and stupid, but life threatening, and i for one, wanted no part in it, HOWEVER as peer pressure set in, i fell in, i gave into it. I finally wanted to be cool. After a while you get tired of being lonely and overlooked. I Gave into the pressure. I've always thought that being different would get me laughed at, and it did, and i grew sick of it. This was the start of it all.

People often reflect on their lives and think "if i could change this.. i would" i'm not one of those people.. There were alot of events that took place in my life that have shaped me into the person i am today. Not only negative but positive as well. In this story you will read about those events and how me being different shifted from a problem, to something great, and from something great, to a problem.