The Cleansing Process
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Last published Wed, Aug 28, 2019
In my minds eye I see myself slim, tanned, clothes clinging to all the right curves. My eyes, large and bright, my lips, full and skin dewy. That could be me, that could be my life, I could really be someone different, I could leave all of this darkness behind all I have to do is gain some self control, stop eating so much and lose some of this bloody weight!
On a side note, can eating one apple really cause you to gain quarter of a pound???????
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